I might have a bit of an Ego
But I think it's for the right reasons
I try to make amends by white knuckling life, scheming for better outcomes, and cheating destiny
I can no longer tell
I might be a bit of a Narcissist
Just remember I'm another facet of a Creator gone fucking mad
I'm doing my best
Is that an illusion?
Am I still just an unconscious puppet of my Subconscious?
How can I truly know?
Maybe my attempts are fruitless
Maybe I'm just another cringe fest
Confusing themselves for a Hero
Where is my self awareness?
Do I have too much or not enough of it?
Does the question answer itself?
Am I just another snake eating its own tail?
I feel like social interaction is a fun house
And my reflection keeps getting distorted
It's a game and I was never good at chess
Everyone wants to play and I keep flipping the board
On purpose and by mistake
But that's just faulty DNA
Everyone believes in eugenics until their own genes are at stake
Now I don't know where I stand
I'm back to the drawing board, trying to figure out my own plans
Instead of everyone else's agendas against me
Real or imagined
Destructive or supportive
Either way I'm moving forward
Accepting my shortcomings as much as my blind spots
That's the idea anyway
Embracing the shadow is hard
When the light doesn't understand dark
I'll do my best
Or at least try to
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