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Starlight found in the black nights

Sunshine pouring in through the long cries

Overwhelming joy in the future daydreams

Bittersweet remnants soaking in through the cracks of past memories

Desperation for renewal

The need to turn my chemistry back 15 years

When neurotransmitters were ignited by the smell of summer barbecues

When I'd laugh at the drop of a hat and moments never felt misused

I wonder if I find more comfort in a past that's already behind me

Or in a future that doesn't exist

Except it's here in my mind

And it feels like inverted nostalgic bliss

Hold me in this moment so I can feel the oxytocin flood my brain

And welcome in a new life

Almost like a chance to start over

To be restored, awakened; childlike

If I haven't met you yet

Then find me someday walking beside the waters

Befriended by those loyal, towering trees

It is there you will truly know me