Serotonin

What is felt, cannot be seen

What is experienced, language fails to contain

There is a method to living in this moment

And that is by travelling through the neural pathways

Weaving through the physical mind, vessel of consciousness

They glimmer and serpentine 

And carry molecules as common as sand, but more precious than any gem found on this Earth

Molecules of oxytocin, dopamine, and 

Serotonin

Nature's gold

Unspoken word

Childhood bliss

The carrier of true wisdom

I feel like a philosopher, dabbling in truth, in search of meaning

Almost always out of reach

But close enough to admire

If I never had it, it wouldn't be missed

Childhood bliss 

Unspoken word

Nature's gold

Serotonin

I have dedicated songs to your beauty that so many continue to experience and take for granted

I Miss You by Blink182

Second Chance by Shinedown

Lateralus by Tool

Pneuma and Jambi

Just to name a few

You are small, but powerful beyond measure

You are the waking dream

The spark

The essence

The glow

The vibrance

The starlight in the infinite expanse of my mind

The indescribable

You are the messenger of meaning

You are what I live for,

My Love,

Serotonin. 

My Truth

Living inside, he emanates

Speaking out loud, she stumbles and finds the words

Together they coexist in conflict and harmony

We have the right, and the honor,

To imply our existence 

And hide from the masses

We are creation

She has the courage, and the audacity to slay dragons that can't be seen

He has the surrender to fall into the depth that is "other" 

Both carry the seed of their counterpart

He expresses his affection through the flowers that show up in winter

She proudly boasts, in rays of gold, when summer arrives

They are united 

And celebrated as individuals

She shines like the sun

He glows like the moon, reflecting her presence

Living in the same sky

They are one

Destructive "Advancement"

Metallic sounds of sliding gates

Open maws ready with profitable hate

The huntress within me baring teeth and claws

Is ready to spear predators without any pawse

Backed into corners, this wilderbeast

Is ready to fight, fuck, and feast

Warriors of shadow and light

Show up in tidal waves to fight for our lives

Water, elusive and mysterious

Conforming and shapeless

Knows only temporary bounds

There is no escape from power in numbers

There's no way to extinguish 

Our unstoppable flames

The most powerful retardants 

Are deployed in vain 

The paradox of destructive advancement continues on

Capturing the hearts of cult followings

A twisted and dying art

Parting trees with vicious machines

Clipping flowers to arrange them into pricey bouquets

There must be a way to stop the madness

Masquerading as sanity

Inaccessible

Beauty bursting into breakout dahlias

Transluscent eyes layered with a thousand questions

A wave of acknowledgement that says "I see you"

Accompanied by a smile that says "I understand"

Moments that haven't reached me, for now remaining inside 

Corvidae soaring above, expressing what my thoughts refuse to put into language

Dopamine burns and flutters

Awkward pauses and stutters

Two simple words relied on when no others can be found

Rhythm and rhymes bringing me back to your gaze in my mind's eye

Messages carried by animals

And sent through invisible thought-lines

My muse keeps going back to the unexpected

After meeting one of my greatest teachers who pulled laughter from my lungs the same way a spinster would pull thread from a wheel

Maybe what we want the most isn't guaranteed

Maybe it's always just out of reach; inaccessible

Forget Me Not

And I’ll forget not to remember my name

In our deepest realization we’re one in the same

Speaking through the flowers on this winding road

I’ll forget not who I am

The imagery is in your mind

Reflected out, ever-present

Guiding you to be free from doubt

I am the mountains, valleys, and rivers from where you originate

I am the voice always speaking to you

The child playing in the woods with sticks and stones

The collective whisper and nudge into the flow of your dream

The soft white noise lulling you to sleep in nearby streams

I’m the newly discovered melodies that play in your mind when the cannabis hits your receptors 

I’m the releasing of hypervigilance

The dropping of armor, the guards being let down 

The windows opening

The view becoming clear

The fog lifting

The truth becoming near

Forget not who I am

I am Love(d), Always

 Still trying to find my way

My eyes search aimlessly while true north  pulls at my heartstrings
We all know where we need to go
The heart is the compass, our roadmaps lie right in front of us
Yet fear creates resistance to flow
I'm present with many but I'm looking behind the concrete, illusions of lost and alone
A crow, blacker than charcoal and lighter than a monarch
Calls for my focus
Back to the moment, they suggest with a firm assurance before leaving me back to my silence
Waiting to see if I got the message
I'm here, my truth reminds me
Effervescent, ever-present
I am love(d), always
My voice speaks without a word.

Uncharted Territories

 It was like the world started laughing again for a moment

Not necessarily through me for the time being, so the humor showed up in hummingbirds and songs on the stereo my neighbor was playing and people going about their business

I found my way back by getting lost for a bit

The moon was full, so a thought said "this is lunacy"

I knew to an outside observer the sight would be nothing less 

Going from giggling to frowning to staring off not so vacantly when there's no outside company can be concerning to people who don't understand

But it's how I keep my friends near when there's distance

I remember crying so hard I laughed 

When I asked to be basked in the presence of my soulmate

The feeling was almost as strong as the memory of the first time I fell into love

Except it was more like softly dropping into something unapologetic and consuming in the best way imaginable

Now I'm trying to break down walls and build fences so I don't get hurt playing in uncharted territories

Sometimes things are more beautiful from a distance

Sometimes I just want to explore.

The Way to Heal

She says come back to me, river running deep 

Let me be your ocean

Your peaceful night's sleep

Remember where you came from

Let yourself flow, love

Cry it out, take your course, and don't judge

I'll be your listening ear to your trickling rush

Your beauty that explains itself

You speak of the universal life 

That runs through everyone

You are connected to all, to Mother's veins

Which move with a wisdom learned from various pains

You are the same

Let me take a step back and decipher

Breathe into my heart what I'm trying to find through this

Passion through poetry

Freedom in art

I always thought raw emotion should precede the stanzas

Still, this seems mostly cerebral

Does this come from origins ethereal?

From a source I will one day get to remember?

Maybe this is the way to heal.